First choice? What a joke.
Never was one, never will be.
Responsibility and accountability? Yeah, right.
Thanks for that notice, I freaking appreciate it.
I don’t understand why there are so much friggin’ politics in school. All I really wanted was to honestly just have a great time of my uni life, do well in my studies, be involved in events, step out of my comfort zone, try out things that I am genuinely interested in and also put my abilities to the test and prove that I can be much more than I think I am. Is that too much to ask for? Why is life so hard?
I thought I wouldn’t be disappointed cos I was “mentally prepared”. I know that team he spoke of, I know who are the “better suited and more relevant experience” people he mentioned. But NO. My heart sort of sank a little when they walked past. And it gets worse cos DX was with them, that means that the previous top 3 should have knew about their plans as well. Haha… guess the joke’s on me huh? I guess this is too hard a hit to get over in a short time…
But you know what? I don’t need you guys. I don’t need that fucking position. You guys can have it. Go ahead, because I am still proud that I have better morals and responsibility and accountability than you all and I know, for sure, at least I won’t leave people hanging. So FUCK IT. I don’t want to care anymore; I am not gonna fight for that position or go against you three. Not because I am not courageous enough or because I will lose to you guys, but just cos I have better things to do than spoil the friendship (although frankly speaking, I’m probably never going to see you guys in the same light again) and also cos I am fucking sick of all the stupid politics involved. Oh, and whether I want to work under you guys depends on my decision and not your stupid offer because I am not desperate for it. I have a choice.
So yeah, good luck. I hope you guys will enjoy the process. (I mean it, I hope you guys will get it, as you all probably will.)